What to do Now....

I am comfortable now to say that Peyton is weaned. It has almost been a week since he last nursed. I was thinking about this last night this is the first time in years that I don't feel limited on what I can do. Being pregnant I would obviously avoid stuff that would not be health for the baby. When I was pregnant with Sophie I was kind of strict on myself I would not drink caffeine at all if I drink any soda it was like Sprite. It didn't get any better after she was born when I started breastfeeding I was consistently worried about what I ate and how it would effect Sophie. I would limit spicy foods, fatty foods, and still would barely drink caffeine. Probably for the first 4 months of her life I mostly ate bland food. Although I knew a lot of things would not effect her or hurt her I would still worry. I also worried that she wasn't getting enough milk from me. Looking back I was kind of stressed out with her. With Peyton I was more relaxed but still I was consistently thinking and worrying about how my actions would effect him. I never felt comfortable drinking any alcohol. I can remember buy like wine and I want it to relax but really it didn't help because I would be so worried that the baby would get sick from it. It is just really weird for me not to think about these things before I eat or drink anything. I love my children, I love being pregnant and breastfeeding. For the last three years I was either pregnant or breastfeeding....or both lol. I have struggled with my weight for a long time now even before I was pregnant with Sophie. I am definitely not one of those mothers who blames being bigger on her pregnancies. I was bigger before that, while breastfeeding with both of my children I would trying to lose weight but always worried about how it would effect them and my milk supply. Plus I feel like it was almost an excuse for me not to be serious about losing the weight. Now that I am neither pregnant or breastfeeding I have no excuse. My older sister and I are starting weight watchers I am hoping that I will stick to it this time. I wish I was closer to family and friends so I could have a better support system. My husband isn't much help lol last night he told me that he would support me by eating all the food so I wouldn't eat it he's crazy...lol I was watching TV last night and I swear every other commercial was about food.